I want this blog to be a place where I can be honest. A place of vulnerability. I was reading a friends blog earlier and there was a section that really hit me. Hit me like a freight train really.
"So why am I not as obsessed with him as he is with me?"
I don't even know how to begin to answer that question.
I have a relationship with God and I am in love with him, but It's that word OBSESSED. I want it. I want to be so overly obsessed with Jesus that people can see it on my face and in my actions. I want it to be so overflowing that only God can receive the glory for it. But that is the struggle. Making sure the glory is His. I can't tell you how many times it creeps in my mind "I wonder if anyone saw me help this person out." Human nature and Satan just suck. Yes, I did just say that.
We were not created to live these comfortable suburban lifestyles. We were created for His
glory and His alone. Created to use every breath we breathe to worship and serve a glorious God. Honestly, some days I sit here and wonder what and who I am living for. I know I am not using every breath God is granting me to give Him praise. This almighty, all powerful, creator of all things, and just plain awesome God is worthy of every second of everyday of our lives. And I don't give it to Him. I go about my days pretty much thinking of everything except how great God is.
I need to be broken.
I thank God for his unending mercy and grace, because I know what I deserve.
I hope Erinn doesn't mind me quoting from her blog, but this girl has a gift! God is evident in her writing and here is a link to her blog that she just started!
http://gloriouspursuits.blogspot.com/